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Well Now...
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I'm going to leave this account or maybe leave DA. I'll let the ones who care know.
If me being happy and being in love with someone bothers people so much where they have to talk shit about them then sic their mothers on me for defending them, then fuck off. Get a life and get over me. But more importantly, get over yourself.
If me being happy and being in love with someone bothers people so much where they have to talk shit about them then sic their mothers on me for defending them, then fuck off. Get a life and get over me. But more importantly, get over yourself.
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Oh God Yes
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Two words for Assassin's Creed II. Fuck yeah. Jemik Pre-ordered the special edition for me for Christmas. ThankyousomuchIloveyou!! ;w; So sexy. The Ezio statue looks like he's about to jump down onto my super nes. 
The art book is so pretty~ And I can't try out the 2 new maps yet due to no Xbox Live. Lame, I know. But I'm poor. = I'm addicted to it. I play it for hours until I get kicked off due to my little brother being obsessed with it as well. Yes, we fight over Assassin's Creed. -_- He'll probably fuck up the disc because he always ruins our games. He even ruined our disc of Assassin's Creed I. Ridiculous. He ruined 2 Oblivion discs and I don't know how many Halo 2's. Jemik also sent me his Oblivion. Why would you want to give away such an amazing game? D: I've been drawing a lot lately. I just never post anything.
I want this. www.cosplaymagic.com/ascriiezc… It's pretty good but it's so expensive. x_x I'm gonna try to save up for it so I can cosplay him. What? Ezio's outfit is amazing. *_* Thing is, I'm short and Ezio is like 6 ft. XDDD Lol it only comes in men's sizes. XP I'll just have to use ace bandages and such. I hope I can get a really cool looking Ezio costume (that fits comfortably) by next Halloween and Youmacon. I'd love to cosplay him. Besides Ezio, I'd wanna cosplay Ritsuka (which is long overdue) and some other anime character. Just don't know who.
omegle.com/ <- Funny shit. XD Talking to random strangers. Fun fun.
My birthday is coming up. ._.;
~Dusk
The art book is so pretty~ And I can't try out the 2 new maps yet due to no Xbox Live. Lame, I know. But I'm poor. = I'm addicted to it. I play it for hours until I get kicked off due to my little brother being obsessed with it as well. Yes, we fight over Assassin's Creed. -_- He'll probably fuck up the disc because he always ruins our games. He even ruined our disc of Assassin's Creed I. Ridiculous. He ruined 2 Oblivion discs and I don't know how many Halo 2's. Jemik also sent me his Oblivion. Why would you want to give away such an amazing game? D: I've been drawing a lot lately. I just never post anything.I want this. www.cosplaymagic.com/ascriiezc… It's pretty good but it's so expensive. x_x I'm gonna try to save up for it so I can cosplay him. What? Ezio's outfit is amazing. *_* Thing is, I'm short and Ezio is like 6 ft. XDDD Lol it only comes in men's sizes. XP I'll just have to use ace bandages and such. I hope I can get a really cool looking Ezio costume (that fits comfortably) by next Halloween and Youmacon. I'd love to cosplay him. Besides Ezio, I'd wanna cosplay Ritsuka (which is long overdue) and some other anime character. Just don't know who.
omegle.com/ <- Funny shit. XD Talking to random strangers. Fun fun.
My birthday is coming up. ._.;
~Dusk
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Is Dusk Alive?
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Rawr. :| (Edit)
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Edit: I know that I might not run into her if I went to YoumaCon... But I'm still not allowing myself to go. Just knowing that she'll be there just ruins it all for me.
And about my mom... Her obsession has gotten worse since I wrote this journal. It's... Unhealthy. =_=
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Well I guess it’s time to replace that last journal. Sorry about that. Anywaaaay… Things have been completely chaotic at home. Divorce is imminent. It should have happened years ago anyway and they both keep bringing it up to me all the time. Also the possibility of me moving to Georgia seems higher than ever. I can’t wait to be out of this hell hole and farther away from the cause of my break downs. I’ll miss the snow… God I’ll miss it… And I’ll hate the heat… But it gives me a chance to start all over and be with the one that saved me.
Is it just me or is loyalty rare these days? Everyone is betraying everyone. Friendship means nothing, no matter what you’ve been through with them or how long you’ve known them. And to those who know me personally, you know who I’m talking about. (A lot of people really.) Or you may not. It depends if your eyes have been open the entire time. I’m not blind and I see things. I’m pretty damn good at finding out things people keep secret. People just make me sick. No one acts their damn age. It’s like you can’t trust anyone at all. I miss being little and being so naive to things.
Anyway.. I’ve been trying to draw something decent to put on here. I can’t. I have a massive art block. Nothing I draw looks right to me and I have no muse. No inspiration. It hasn’t come to me in a long while. I haven’t wanted to do anything really. What happened in March is still killing me. (And to those who don’t know, I’m sorry but I’m tired of explaining over and over.)
I’ve been playing RebirthRO a lot though. It’s so addicting and I still don’t know much about the game. If any of you play on that server, note me. I used to play FeelRO but it was too low rate and laggy for me. It also kinda bugged my comp up a bit. (Sorry Magi! DX I can still go on it whenever you wish to play with me.) And even though I’ve thanked him before, I want to thank Jemik again for getting me that donate. (Angra Manyu) Love to you. <3 I would also like to thank my friend Jeremy I met in the game for helping me out so damn much. I would just be a confused newbie without you and I would have spent a looonngg time either bugging other players/people on the forum, searching on Google, or going through RateMyServer in its entirety. Aaannndd thank you Magi for helping me out when I was completely new to RO. <3 <3 <3
Something that might make you all laugh or shake your head. My mother… Is a TWILIGHT FANGIRL. DX Wtf, seriously. I get so embarrassed but it’s funny as hell when she geeks out. I laugh and smile while I shake my head. Here are some examples:
Ex. 1
Mom: “_____, do you know what my maiden name is?”
Me: “Of course. It’s _____.” *Giving her a weird look*
Mom: “Noooo~ It’s Cullen… Or Black.” *Dorky grin*
Me: “…” *Facepalm while trying to hold back laughter*
Ex. 2
Mom: “God dammnnn Edward is so hot. I wish he would come and take me away.”
Me: “…” *Another facepalm*
Oh god… It gets worse. She won’t stop pestering me about what happens in the series. I admit I’ve read it but I can’t help that a part of me loves it. It’s because I love romance and vampires, damn it! DX She’s watched the movie so many times now that I don’t even know and she reads those books for hours when she should be sleeping for work. Ughhhh…. ><; I hate those extreme fangirls with a passion and I’m completely ashamed that I used to be one.
I never thought that this would happen but… I got into Pokémon. OTL I blame Sabeku. DAMN YOU! D’X I’ve spent hours playing Diamond, deep into the night. (Around 5 or 6.) ><; Ugghh.. I thought I left it in my past. Can’t play it anymore ‘cause of an argument that I got into with my idiot of a little brother. (He also ruined my DS Lite so it doesn’t open and close right. He also ruined his waaay before.) I beat it before he took it back though. >D I’m just going to save up some money and trade in my DS Lite for one of those DSIs I’ve been hearing about. That’s going to take forever though due to my family’s financial situation.
Okay. Those who’ve known me a while know that I’ve been wanting to go to Youma Con since freshman year. Maybe even a bit before that! (I haven’t even been to a con before even!) I was going to go this year. I was going to cosplay Ritsuka from Loveless. I was going to go with a bunch of friends. Canceled. Everything canceled. If she goes, I’m not. I won’t allow myself no matter how badly I’ve wanted to go for so long. And plus, those friends I was going to go with betrayed me in the whole situation with what happened in March and act as if nothing happened, like they’re innocent. Pff.. Whatever. I’ll have my chance to go someday.
Apparently iAnti registrations are open again. It’s a role-play community forum. It’s really fun and time consuming. It’s where Akihiko/Katsu was born. I haven’t been there in a long long time though and I feel horrible about it. Maybe someday I’ll post there again when things clear up in life. Anyway, Google it. iAntiVIRUS. The role-play posts are lengthy, interesting, and the grammar and spelling isn’t amateurish. It’s a requirement. The people are easy to get along with and you can make a lot of good friends there. Most of the members, unlike me, are active. There are amazing artists and writers that participate and contests are always being held. Let me know if you decide to join. ;D (It’s also where I met really good friends of mine who became so close.. Jemik and Magicherry. I’ve also found amazing deviant artists from iAnti.)
Another thing. Apparently I have Nickel Dermatitis AKA, I’m allergic to nickel. O_o;; Didn’t see that one coming but it was kind of obvious I guess. I’ve had this thing on my face and when people see it, they ask if I’ve been punched in the face. (Lol.) Well, the metal wheel on my chocolate phone has nickel in it… And the mark is right where it touches my skin. I put tape over it for now until I get a new phone. Plus I got a headset for it. (It’s annoying as hell to use since it’s hard for people to hear me. I speak softly/quietly naturally.
Sucks that I can’t use the spinny wheel anymore. :< I’ve healed a lot since I found out what the cause was. <3
Wow. I didn’t mean to make my journal this long. >_> Sorry about all the ranting. I really got to try to refrain myself from posting these kind of journals. Ah well. I’ll try to work out of this art block and try to post something decent. I’ll try to check all my messages. I’ll try to be active. I’ll try to critique and comment more. My apologies to everyone for not being active and being so distant.
Links:
Youma Con (If you guys wanna go.)
Ragnarok Online’s Main Site (Look up the different classes you can be before playing.)
Rate My Server (Helpful site with RO issues.)
RebirthRO (Server I play now with Jemik.)
FeelRO (Used to play but Magicherry still plays.)
iAntiVIRUS (An amazing role-playing community.)
Much love,
~Civil Dusk
And about my mom... Her obsession has gotten worse since I wrote this journal. It's... Unhealthy. =_=
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Well I guess it’s time to replace that last journal. Sorry about that. Anywaaaay… Things have been completely chaotic at home. Divorce is imminent. It should have happened years ago anyway and they both keep bringing it up to me all the time. Also the possibility of me moving to Georgia seems higher than ever. I can’t wait to be out of this hell hole and farther away from the cause of my break downs. I’ll miss the snow… God I’ll miss it… And I’ll hate the heat… But it gives me a chance to start all over and be with the one that saved me.
Is it just me or is loyalty rare these days? Everyone is betraying everyone. Friendship means nothing, no matter what you’ve been through with them or how long you’ve known them. And to those who know me personally, you know who I’m talking about. (A lot of people really.) Or you may not. It depends if your eyes have been open the entire time. I’m not blind and I see things. I’m pretty damn good at finding out things people keep secret. People just make me sick. No one acts their damn age. It’s like you can’t trust anyone at all. I miss being little and being so naive to things.
Anyway.. I’ve been trying to draw something decent to put on here. I can’t. I have a massive art block. Nothing I draw looks right to me and I have no muse. No inspiration. It hasn’t come to me in a long while. I haven’t wanted to do anything really. What happened in March is still killing me. (And to those who don’t know, I’m sorry but I’m tired of explaining over and over.)
I’ve been playing RebirthRO a lot though. It’s so addicting and I still don’t know much about the game. If any of you play on that server, note me. I used to play FeelRO but it was too low rate and laggy for me. It also kinda bugged my comp up a bit. (Sorry Magi! DX I can still go on it whenever you wish to play with me.) And even though I’ve thanked him before, I want to thank Jemik again for getting me that donate. (Angra Manyu) Love to you. <3 I would also like to thank my friend Jeremy I met in the game for helping me out so damn much. I would just be a confused newbie without you and I would have spent a looonngg time either bugging other players/people on the forum, searching on Google, or going through RateMyServer in its entirety. Aaannndd thank you Magi for helping me out when I was completely new to RO. <3 <3 <3
Something that might make you all laugh or shake your head. My mother… Is a TWILIGHT FANGIRL. DX Wtf, seriously. I get so embarrassed but it’s funny as hell when she geeks out. I laugh and smile while I shake my head. Here are some examples:
Ex. 1
Mom: “_____, do you know what my maiden name is?”
Me: “Of course. It’s _____.” *Giving her a weird look*
Mom: “Noooo~ It’s Cullen… Or Black.” *Dorky grin*
Me: “…” *Facepalm while trying to hold back laughter*
Ex. 2
Mom: “God dammnnn Edward is so hot. I wish he would come and take me away.”
Me: “…” *Another facepalm*
Oh god… It gets worse. She won’t stop pestering me about what happens in the series. I admit I’ve read it but I can’t help that a part of me loves it. It’s because I love romance and vampires, damn it! DX She’s watched the movie so many times now that I don’t even know and she reads those books for hours when she should be sleeping for work. Ughhhh…. ><; I hate those extreme fangirls with a passion and I’m completely ashamed that I used to be one.
I never thought that this would happen but… I got into Pokémon. OTL I blame Sabeku. DAMN YOU! D’X I’ve spent hours playing Diamond, deep into the night. (Around 5 or 6.) ><; Ugghh.. I thought I left it in my past. Can’t play it anymore ‘cause of an argument that I got into with my idiot of a little brother. (He also ruined my DS Lite so it doesn’t open and close right. He also ruined his waaay before.) I beat it before he took it back though. >D I’m just going to save up some money and trade in my DS Lite for one of those DSIs I’ve been hearing about. That’s going to take forever though due to my family’s financial situation.
Okay. Those who’ve known me a while know that I’ve been wanting to go to Youma Con since freshman year. Maybe even a bit before that! (I haven’t even been to a con before even!) I was going to go this year. I was going to cosplay Ritsuka from Loveless. I was going to go with a bunch of friends. Canceled. Everything canceled. If she goes, I’m not. I won’t allow myself no matter how badly I’ve wanted to go for so long. And plus, those friends I was going to go with betrayed me in the whole situation with what happened in March and act as if nothing happened, like they’re innocent. Pff.. Whatever. I’ll have my chance to go someday.
Apparently iAnti registrations are open again. It’s a role-play community forum. It’s really fun and time consuming. It’s where Akihiko/Katsu was born. I haven’t been there in a long long time though and I feel horrible about it. Maybe someday I’ll post there again when things clear up in life. Anyway, Google it. iAntiVIRUS. The role-play posts are lengthy, interesting, and the grammar and spelling isn’t amateurish. It’s a requirement. The people are easy to get along with and you can make a lot of good friends there. Most of the members, unlike me, are active. There are amazing artists and writers that participate and contests are always being held. Let me know if you decide to join. ;D (It’s also where I met really good friends of mine who became so close.. Jemik and Magicherry. I’ve also found amazing deviant artists from iAnti.)
Another thing. Apparently I have Nickel Dermatitis AKA, I’m allergic to nickel. O_o;; Didn’t see that one coming but it was kind of obvious I guess. I’ve had this thing on my face and when people see it, they ask if I’ve been punched in the face. (Lol.) Well, the metal wheel on my chocolate phone has nickel in it… And the mark is right where it touches my skin. I put tape over it for now until I get a new phone. Plus I got a headset for it. (It’s annoying as hell to use since it’s hard for people to hear me. I speak softly/quietly naturally.
Sucks that I can’t use the spinny wheel anymore. :< I’ve healed a lot since I found out what the cause was. <3Wow. I didn’t mean to make my journal this long. >_> Sorry about all the ranting. I really got to try to refrain myself from posting these kind of journals. Ah well. I’ll try to work out of this art block and try to post something decent. I’ll try to check all my messages. I’ll try to be active. I’ll try to critique and comment more. My apologies to everyone for not being active and being so distant.
Links:
Youma Con (If you guys wanna go.)
Ragnarok Online’s Main Site (Look up the different classes you can be before playing.)
Rate My Server (Helpful site with RO issues.)
RebirthRO (Server I play now with Jemik.)
FeelRO (Used to play but Magicherry still plays.)
iAntiVIRUS (An amazing role-playing community.)
Much love,
~Civil Dusk
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